I am so stupid

I am so upset
I want to reset
Tears roll form my eyes
It seems so unwise
With no more trust
I must
I must give up this feeling
All because she is stealing
I must lose
With one big bruise
Dieing inside with so much pain
Like having been slaine

I am so stupid

The Name that makes me want to Cry

Situatuion: You like someone and you tell someone you "think" you can trust, but then you find out you should have never told them.

*Note: Not to hurt him/her feeling if he/she ever found out, I will be using a different name.

I want to murder Karen, and every time I think, see, or hear her name I want to run in a corner, scream and cry. Why? Karen is one big fat meany. She is flirting with MY crush. It is so annoying and I try to tell her to stop but she won't, making me fustrated. When I tell her to stop text/talk to him, she say, "Don't worry were just friends." Yea right. Ehh. I want to text him but I find he is texting her and that is the reason why he is not replying. I hate Karen. It makes my so mad that she doesnt understand what she is doing. I have asked her to stop a hundred times, but all she does is gets mad a me and then I feel bad. But now i have had enough I am sick and tired of her talking to him. I understand if thier "just friends" and talk once in awhile, but everyday, come on. She doesn't get it, she is and idoit. Karen if your reading this I want you to know that becuase of you, you make me life (every single day) a living nightmare. How do you think it makes me feel when I watch her talk to him. And it not just Glen (my crush), its every single boy she sees she HAS to be flirty. And she doesnt seem the boy crazy type. Karen is so desperate, she'll do anything to get thier attention. All I want is for her to stop talking to him, like someone else, never ever text him again, leave me alone ( I dont ever want to be around her again), and get a life. That's all I ask. But since she is an IDIOT, she wont understand. I hate being the big girl in every situation. So since she wont do anything, I have to be the big girl and stop liking him, before anything thing happens and I get hurt. I swear he likes her and since she use to be my friend, it is horrible to see him like her. Even Tricia sees it. I hate this. Why did I ever have to like him? Karen has made my life so dang difficult, I want her to get out of my life. Life sucks everyday for me. Well goodbye Karen.

PS: I hate you.

Feel what is Real

I try so hard, but get pushed down. My feelings are bottled inside. So angery I want to scream. So fragile I want to cry. So scared I want to die. I am so sad inside, I will live alone. I will never feel love. I will feel defeat, and I think whats the point. And so, I give up...

Rage

A flood of rage
I always feel pain
A knife in my heart
to tear me apart
Ripping me to pieces
I pray to Jesus
End the pain
That runs through my vains

Cut my wounds deeper
No one is my keeper
Bones break
So do whatever it takes
I dont care
Cause this is all unfair
Tear the ears
So they dont hear
The sadness in my voice

Cry

Drowned in tears
I live in fear
With no by my side
I'm ready to cry
Water comes from my eyes like a running stream
All I want to do is scream
Confused inside
My emotions hide
And I am left tongue tied

I'm made up of broken glass
My insides ready to blast.
If the wind blows
I will go
Take me away please
I'm beg on my knees
I live in shame
This is all a game
A test of life
Where there is no dice

And I have failed

Accept: Review #3

So let start by saying my mom is bipolar. One minute she is all, "hey we can work through this just talk to me", and next minute she's evil, saying" stop it your old to do it your self, lets talk in the morning when your in a better mood". She is always like this and I hate it. One day I would like for her to just accept the fact that I not perfect and I still need her. Why does she not want to talk to me? And this just make me mad at home but also at school. I mean it just makes me feel like I'm an idiot and can do anything. I feel everything I do is wrong, and not me just being hard on myself, everyone points it out. Its not easy being picked on for being an idiot, by your dad, mom, and friends. I wish my mom could be there to listen to what I have to say and just know that I'm there. I want to be accepted. I hate this feeling, and I bet everyone else does to. Right? Err...this make me so mad and wanting to scream, but what would she know. (My mom) living in fantasy land believes everything is perfect and I'm (she is) the best mom in the whole entire world. Sorry to break the news to you but your not. I don't know what to do anymore, I just give up. But is it my fault or is it her? I really don't know